Looking back at 2o08...

Christmas won't be the same without you by the Plain White T's is probably my favorite Christmas jam for this holidays. It's a good mix of Christmas and rock music with lyrics that make me go "Awww~".

I do this every year... I look back at the past year and pick my top five best memories. The new year is coming in a few days. That's crazy. In a way, the year went by so slow yet so fast. It started off as the worst year ever but ended up being one of the best for me.

Resa's Ups and Downs of 2o08
* Going to Korea, that was the best thing of 2o08. To go to a foreign country for two whole months without any parents or knowing anyone... it was like starting over. All the people I met and befriended, the places I saw, living life as an independent girl... the experience was AWESOME. I started a life over there with new friends and found myself not wanting to leave when it was time to go back to San Diego~
* Cafe Venti... It started off as a job to keep me busy and as a way to get money to save up. In the end, I found my second family whom they all have adopted me as their half Korean (;
* Life was at a all time low in March and I was probably depressed without realizing it. School was all wrong, friendships were definitely dysfunctional, and I was in a bubble. The friends that stuck by me through that, I truly appreciate it so much.
* Love, Crushes, and Hurt... There was no love this year and I don't have a problem with that. This year was filled with so much crushing though. I really liked four guys in total throughout the year and I just realized that I am in no rush to have a relationship.

Resa is Looking Forward in 2o09
* With the new year coming, I hope to improve myself in school, work, and myself. I know I have many flaws but I will for sure work on my strong personality. It's okay to be soft sometimes, I don't always have to keep a front up.
* Just be happy and content with life, in order to be happy... I need to be upset and sad. I have found my group of friends and now I just need to hold on to you.
* Don't dwell on the past. Things happen and people change. It's a part of growing up.
* Save up at least $1,200 by the end of the year to put towards my Korea Fund~

Welcome 2o09, I hope this year will bring lots of good luck and joy to all my family and friends~ 2o08 was quite interesting and memory filled... I can't wait for what is in store ^^

re evaluate the situation to my liking.

Sometimes I hate going on facebook only because I know I might get unhappy or annoyed. I can't really believe how things have turned out since the beginning of the year. In a way, I blame myself for what happened because the party sparked it. But then again, it made me realize how people change and it is out of my control. It's time to move on... people change, I change. I've grown up in ways you can't understand. I am sorry but life goes on with or without you.

With the year ending and the new year beginning... it's time to re-evaluate the people, events, and habits.

변명하지 마~

To think or not to think?

... that is the question!

The past few days I have been thinking about life, mostly about love in particular. Love is such a complicated thing and there is no right way to describe it or to go about it. It's been almost two years since I've had a boyfriend and it makes me question myself about why I haven't had another since then. It has occured to me that I am quite picky and that I allow myself to be put in situation that are a setup for failure. Since the beginning of the 2008, it's been a rough one. No matter how I try, I can't seem to get the guy I want. It's always something that puts a halt to the developing relationship. I've been lead on and played but no matter what I try, it always happens.
Till this time of day, I still wonder what happened in Korea. It's been a little over three months but it still lingers in my mind. Was it me? Was it him? Was I too much? Did I expect too much out of a summer thing? Does he still care? Why am I still holing on? All these questions I have and I know they will never get answered. The closure I need was never given. Time will do the trick~

I am trying to move on. There are plenty of other guys out there, I am just not looking hard enough. When you least expect it... you'll fall for that guy with out realizing. Life and love works in a mysterious way.

All I want for Christmas...

... is you (;

Yes, I want you... you know who you are. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ... I'm just playing. A winter love would be nice though wouldn't it?

I am feeling the Christmas-ness in the air. I just went shopping for my youth group kids today and it made me realized jsut how picky kids are these days. I am halfway done with their presents, so hopefully I will finish it all before Sunday rolls around. We are doing secret santa with the Venti workers as well, I am really excited for that since it is most of the workers first time playing this ^^~

I can't wait for all the Christmas stuff to start. All the parties and get togethers with people. Snowboarding trip. Gosh I can't wait... *dances*

I am getting punished TT

I am so screwed for tomorrow. Of all the days in the year... I have to get sick today.

- A fever
- Three finals
- Focus = 0%

Wish me luck as I walk into my death TT