Chill out whatcha yelling for?

I like it when things work out for the better once you get it off your chest. I am actually a little happy he wasn't interested. LOL, at least I won't be stressing about that any longer. Except now... I am going back to post Korea mode about... him. One thing end and another thing starts.

Anyways... this is definitely the start of a lovely friendship... ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

我想好。我想韩国。

Why the sudden Chinese? lol, I am not too sure myself but I do notice that I start busting out Chinese or Korean when I feel stressed, sad, or angry. Maybe it's a way to relief stress... ^^;

I've been thinking about things that have happened recently, it makes me wonder why things happen to me in the ways they do. Or maybe it's life telling me that I need to break my habits. I am sure we all ahve bad habits we should change but it's easier said then done. I realize how much I care for my friends and get really overprotective. In the end, I don't them to get hurt. One thing is for sure... I am always up to something with guys. Why is it like that? I haven't come up with the answer myself.

I never seem to learn from my mistakes with guys. No matter how much I get played or lead on, I always end up being interested in the same type over and over. But as I think about what has been in Korea, it's okay to put yourself out there. The only way I can grow is to experience it even though the risk of being hurt is there. I have no regrets with everything I've learned about being in love and being in like. What's living without getting hurt and living in the moment right?

The heart grows fonder.

I know I said I wouldn't like him but the more I talk and get to know him... the faster I find myself slowly starting to like him. I do hear the things people have to say and I listen but even then, I still end up being interested. It's not bad to be interested but once the line had been crossed... it's hard to go back until something happens to make it end.

That is something I don't like about myself. No matter what I say or people say, I will end up getting myself attached which leads to being hurt. When will I learn from my mistakes?

Is it possible for a player to change their way? I believe that every player will change when they meet the right person. I have comes to terms that I have player tendencies BUT I'm not one. People need to realize that when I am being nice... I am just being nice and nothing more.

It's good to write~

It's time to start up a new blog for my daily rants, thoughts, and talks. Like Jan was saying to me, it felt too weird to write about my normal day to day life stuff in my Korea blog.

I will blog later... must go study ^^;