Who ever said life was easy... LIED.
I sound a tad bitter ^^; I am not bitter though, just confused and wondering what the future holds. It seems rather dim at the moment but I am trying to get things together... slowly.
I want to just stop and give up but that's not possible, I will be setting myself up for doom. Just give me time and I will be okay.
There is no happiness without any pain or trouble.
Showing posts with label thinking. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thinking. Show all posts
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Thursday, December 18, 2008
To think or not to think?
... that is the question!
The past few days I have been thinking about life, mostly about love in particular. Love is such a complicated thing and there is no right way to describe it or to go about it. It's been almost two years since I've had a boyfriend and it makes me question myself about why I haven't had another since then. It has occured to me that I am quite picky and that I allow myself to be put in situation that are a setup for failure. Since the beginning of the 2008, it's been a rough one. No matter how I try, I can't seem to get the guy I want. It's always something that puts a halt to the developing relationship. I've been lead on and played but no matter what I try, it always happens.
Till this time of day, I still wonder what happened in Korea. It's been a little over three months but it still lingers in my mind. Was it me? Was it him? Was I too much? Did I expect too much out of a summer thing? Does he still care? Why am I still holing on? All these questions I have and I know they will never get answered. The closure I need was never given. Time will do the trick~
I am trying to move on. There are plenty of other guys out there, I am just not looking hard enough. When you least expect it... you'll fall for that guy with out realizing. Life and love works in a mysterious way.
The past few days I have been thinking about life, mostly about love in particular. Love is such a complicated thing and there is no right way to describe it or to go about it. It's been almost two years since I've had a boyfriend and it makes me question myself about why I haven't had another since then. It has occured to me that I am quite picky and that I allow myself to be put in situation that are a setup for failure. Since the beginning of the 2008, it's been a rough one. No matter how I try, I can't seem to get the guy I want. It's always something that puts a halt to the developing relationship. I've been lead on and played but no matter what I try, it always happens.
Till this time of day, I still wonder what happened in Korea. It's been a little over three months but it still lingers in my mind. Was it me? Was it him? Was I too much? Did I expect too much out of a summer thing? Does he still care? Why am I still holing on? All these questions I have and I know they will never get answered. The closure I need was never given. Time will do the trick~
I am trying to move on. There are plenty of other guys out there, I am just not looking hard enough. When you least expect it... you'll fall for that guy with out realizing. Life and love works in a mysterious way.
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