Stress Free is the Way to Be.

For the first time in such a long time, I feel relaxed and calm. Maybe because it's Thanksgiving break but whatever it is... it feels really nice.

Thanksgiving was lovely. I got to spend time with my family along with my Venti family. It refreshing when you take the time out to realize there are people around who truly care about you. I love family~

I am waiting for my new green Dell Inspirson 1525 to come... I can't wait (;

Thank you for Everything~

Today it's Thanksgiving and it raining~ I actually enjoy the rain this time. It makes it seem more like the holidays are around.

Since Thanksgiving is here, it mean that I have a lot to be thanlful for and that the year is coming to a close in a month and half or so~

What is Resa thankful for?
o1. God, Nothing is possible without him. God is all the time, all the time God is good~
o2. My family, Without them I wouldn't be here. I don't show it enough but I am graceful that they are around and are always support me though we may butt heads. Love you forever ~<3
o3. My friends, These are the people that keep me sane. The old and new ones I am thankful for you all. You have been there for me this past year when I needed it the most. Thank you for everything~ Bestie... I owe you one in particular. You are the one I can trust and turn to when things are so crappy. You put up with with and understand. Words can never express how much I am grateful to have you in my life<3>
o4. Work at Cafe Venti, You have become my second family... the family I have away from home. Imo and Imobu, I love you guys and appreciate everything you've done for me since I started working. The workers, you have become like older brothers and sisters to me. Take care of eghie Resa from now on okay?
o5. Good health, That's always something I am grateful. I am living and breathing without any complications.
o6. A chance to experience new things, I can say with confidence that I am really really thankful for this. Korea... the people, place, experience, EVERYTHING... I am thankful for it~

I hope everyone has a lovely thanksgiving with family and friends~ Don't forget to eat lots of good food like turkey and pie. I know I will ^^

HEY! Don't Bring Me Down!

The title speaks for itself, don't you think? Totally *^^*

For the past few days, I've been feeling tired for some reason. I don't know what the particular reason is so it bothers me a little. It's probably a combination of school, degree requirements, work, and the personal life. Why the sudden thoughts? It is because I realize there is so much I need to accomplish and complete before I actually get to go back to Korea. It sucks, but that's the reality of things.

I feel behind on school and I am to blame, no one else. I am trying right now but for some reason me trying doesn't seem good enough. How much will it take? I don't know. I am so over school but no... I must keep working at it. Work is the same but there is a flood of new workers, all males. I should be happy but I am feeling a big overwhelmed with them. Why can't it just be the original Cafe Venti team? It doesn't tell that Imo and Imobo are trying to set me up with the new workers xD I honestly don't need a guy at the moment. There are other things I am worried about. It's fun to crush though, I just don't want the attachment. How selfish of me, but that's the truth.

High School Drama. I am so over that ship, I have left the dock never to return to it again. But why do stupid people keep bringing it to me though? I seriously have no time or have the desire to waste my time on that. If only things were that simple eh? I am trying to ignore it all but we'll see what happens.

Life works in peculiar ways. Why did it choose me to have all this unnecessary stress?

My approach towards guys.

Moving on... a bit too fast?

I know people don't say it out loud to me but they are thinking that I am one that move from guy too guys too quickly. I can see why people would think that way but it it really as bad as people make it seem? Of course it's not, what's live if you dwell on something too long.

Life is too short to dwell on one person who doesn't share the same feeling. Why wait? Just move on and find a new guy. I have come to adopt this peculiar way of thinking about realizing what I had missed in my last year of high school and my first year of college because I was in a long distance relationship. While people had there significant others there, I was sitting there wishing for mines. It's actually a little sad now what I think about it. So because of that, I feel I am catching up on missed opportunities and experiencing what it means to be in like/crush and to get hurt. That's all a part of growing up isn't it?

With the many flaws I have, I am slowly trying to improve myself. Sure it's a hard task but not unattainable. First thing first, I need to be less picky and lower my standards according to my dongsaeng. I am picky but... I will try. As long as there is some sort of attractions towards the guy... I will give him a chance before shutting him down.

I guess just go with the flow and whatever happens.... happens.

One of those Sundays...

That I realize how funny kids can be. I am sure most people know that I have youth group every Sunday and I teach the group of ten to thirteen year olds. This was probably one of the most entertaining/stressful Sunday I've had since the term started.

Number One ~ One of my kids ended up punching someone another kid in the face and made the kid throw up. I didn't understand how the hell that happened. The reason for why he punched was "I was going to throw up so I just punch him cause he was going to punch me." So because he punch the other kid, the other kid threw up instead. Oh what three snack size bags of hot cheetos can do a ten year old. But anyways, I thought that was the most randomest shit ever =_=*

Number Two ~ Ever had people younger then you attempt to hook you up? Well it happened to be today. Two of the thirteen year olds I teach did it to me. There was free time so I was talking to the older girls and then one of them asked me... "Chi Nhu, are you single?" Here I am sitting there and I look at her and go... "What? Why? Yes I am. I have no time for a boyfriend." So she goes, "My uncle is single too." Right then and there I was thinking that these girls were crazy. For the next ten minutes she was trying to get me to be interested. That was the highlight of my day. *sigh* Do I look like I need a boyfriend?!?!?

So, after today... I realize the joys of teaching the youngsters ^^; Sometimes here is no explaination for things and sometimes they just cross the line. Man, I worry for these kids... lol~

The temporary denial...

I am okay with how things are. I have come to terms that things will never be able to go back to how it was before and I think I am okay with that. Sometimes it just happens. People change and things change. There isn't any reason to dwell on it rigth? It took me a few months to realize it and I do miss how it was before. But in the end, I think it's all for the better. I don't need to deal with baggages like you. I've been meeting new people and having a good time.

Yes, I am happier without you guys. I can and will say it if you ever ask me. Never once did you ask about my Korea trip nor did you show any interest. That showed me to so much about how you guys were. Right then I knew that this friendship wasn't working. I am glad we were friends but we have change and now you are nothing but acquaintances to me. The truth hurts doesn't it?

I am going to continue living my life without you. Don't expect anything from me anymore okay? You are just a distant memory to me.

Like I have said before... I don't like fronting... so no fakeassness.